I’m scared of taking a test.
….my first HIV/AIDS test. It’s on Monday.
Technically, I just need to get blood work done, but, at my check-up today, the opportunity arose and I asked if I could check for other things as well. Although I’m willingly taking this opportunity, I’ve managed to be scared shitless.
Not that I think there’s anything wrong with me, but the next two weeks are gonna bother me due to the possibility that there still COULD BE something wrong with me. I’m only saying this because I haven’t always been as careful as I could have been in the past. What if I AM sick? What if there is something wrong with me? It wouldn’t be anyone else’s fault, but mine, right?
This makes my heart heavy.
Monday, here I come, but I don’t have a choice but to be ready for you. Please be good to me.
